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Bloggers ups and downs with their illness

I think you connect the most over time seeing blog writers have great highs and painful lows over months and even years of blogs. I hope I have shared just as much with my blog. I am a performer not a writer but I have tried to be honest. The other very interesting thing is the different lives the blog writers I read live and yet they all share a illness not often treated by the world as deadly.
I thank with all my heart my blog writing comrades for helping a very isolated and lonely person survive. Special shout out to my Googie,Broke,CP,and Kansas.

Guy living in my garage!?!

I watched "The Bridge" without sound.. Freaky! Wait? If I shaved my head and put on baseball cap..?

Sabrina and Step Da

Of course I stole this picture from her Godmother. Da is cool I like to imagine having a Guinness with him someday. Lately I have daydreamed Googie is dating Da's brother and they become friends at some family dinner. Did I stop acting in plays to stop producing children? I was starring in a play called "Beyond Therapy" ha ha! You can always get laid at a cast party if you star in a play and she was mourning the death of her only brother. I still don't know what she said to me in Polish but it was hot! Hard to believe? I can almost not believe it myself!

I love Maria!

No I won't turn orange

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Monday Night

Nov 27, 2007 1:14 AM
Subject:	Another Monday Night Open Mic Set List
Body:	!. I stole a que ball here last Monday = silence 2. I drank 9 orange crush sodas at a family reunion = silence 3. Is my dick as big as my head?/Gay man love? = laugh at me? 4. My sister and I communicate through myspace profile headlines= laughs 5. We should name a street after a albino! = Portland laughs?

Daughter Dreams

Only in dreams would it be so perfect
Your the reason I wait and not act
I won't go and hurt you but I must wait alone
Godmother is here and I wait for her call

Winter

I am going to try to light up winter and my mood.
Ordered from amazon.com this highly recommended
light lamp for seasonal mood disorder.

I have really enjoyed the sunshine the last few days but
I know the dark winter is coming. Evil frosty!

Hang on CP

It's just shocking the roller coaster from pain to joy then kicked in the gut back to horror that you are forced to deal with these last weeks. Please please no more loss for CP!!!

Amazon Gift Received

Amazing black and white pics of Nyssa and the gift boots. One blog entry to look back on and smile.

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One Way Ticket To Kansas: Caring About Someone With Borderline Personality Disorder And Finding A Healthy You
by Ozzie Tinman (April 6, 2005)

Yeah for Googie!

You known this Brit guy for 20 years and if you can't take a chance on that when can you. I swear I had a gut feeling when you briefly first mentioned him in your blog that he was your future. I asked about him when you returned from Germany with the last boyfriend if you had contacted him. It will be interesting to read about your life in the UK.

Dearest Mother fucking Earth!

December 9th land in the motherfucking homeland!

Hello Mommie happy birthday! Sunshine!

Just fuck everything and move to Honolulu!

I am out bitch! I am out!

Or get one of those light happy lamps?

Thankful for the sunshine

Walking in the beautiful sunshine of downtown Poorland I came across a former coworker the honorable lord high master of arms Robert Dennis. He had just finished overnight shift at a new part time security job. We spoke as he waited for his third and last transfer bus home. He seemed so glad to see me so that he could stay awake after just missing a bus. I thought back to acouple of years ago when he came to work with a large clear plastic zip bag. He had just cremented his Mother and had come straight to work. I was afraid to leave the site so I stayed to try to measure how upset he was. Every other year you hear about a security officer suicide or bldg. engineer. A PSU guard hung himself in September. We exchanged phone numbers and I stopped his bus when it showed up.

I went to whole foods after that for healthy eats just so happened to see a special holiday porto wine special. The cashier said it was the real stuff so it is called porto not port. Whatever! It tastes like a Hawaiian snack treat dryed plum seeds that are salted that I like.

I had my headphones,black hat,sunglasses like the lonely dj, but I was not crying. Maybe I need to move to a more sunnier climate? More sun on black Friday!

Who writes this stuff? Perfecto!

November 21, 2007

1. Pisces (2/19-3/20)

   From time to time, you go through what could be called a 'velcro phase', when you feel a strong need to stay close -- physically and emotionally -- to the people you love the most. But right now, you could be moving away from that, detaching yourself from folks and going off on your own for a while. Do not fear this change of attitude, because it is perfectly healthy and normal. You are not moving away from people, you are just moving in a different direction from them for a while.

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ME!

My THX Space

Not Drunk = Acting!

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Fucked Up!

DARDENNE PRAIRIE, Missouri (AP) -- Megan Meier thought she had made a new friend in cyberspace when a cute teenage boy named Josh contacted her on MySpace and began exchanging messages with her.

Teen's parents say she thought she had made a friend through the social networking web site MySpace.

Megan, a 13-year-old who suffered from depression and attention deficit disorder, corresponded with Josh for more than a month before he abruptly ended their friendship, telling her he had heard she was cruel.

The next day Megan committed suicide. Her family learned later that Josh never actually existed; he was created by members of a neighborhood family that included a former friend of Megan's.

Now Megan's parents hope the people who made the fraudulent profile on the social networking web site will be prosecuted, and they are seeking legal changes to safeguard children on the Internet.

The girl's mother, Tina Meier, said she doesn't think anyone involved intended for her daughter to kill herself.

"But when adults are involved and continue to screw with a 13-year-old, with or without mental problems, it is absolutely vile," she told the Suburban Journals of Greater St. Louis, which first reported on the case.

Tina Meier said law enforcement officials told her the case did not fit into any law. But sheriff's officials have not closed the case and pledged to consider new evidence if it emerges.

Megan Meier hanged herself in her bedroom on October 16, 2006, and died the next day. She was described as a "bubbly, goofy" girl who loved spending time with her friends, watching movies and fishing with her dad.

Megan had been on medication, but had been upbeat before her death, her mother said, after striking up a relationship on MySpace with Josh Evans about six weeks before her death.

Josh told her he was born in Florida and had recently moved to the nearby community of O'Fallon. He said he was homeschooled, and didn't yet have a phone number in the area to give her. Watch Megan's parents say she swooned when she received an affectionate note from 'Josh' »

Megan's parents said she received a message from him on October 15 of last year, essentially saying he didn't want to be her friend anymore, that he had heard she wasn't nice to her friends.

The next day, as Megan's mother headed out the door to take another daughter to the orthodontist, she knew Megan was upset about Internet messages. She asked Megan to log off. Users on MySpace must be at least 14, though Megan was not when she opened her account. A MySpace spokeswoman did not return calls seeking comment.

Someone using Josh's account was sending cruel messages. Then, Megan called her mother, saying electronic bulletins were being posted about her, saying things like, "Megan Meier is a slut. Megan Meier is fat."

Megan's mother, who monitored her daughter's online communications, returned home and said she was shocked at the vulgar language her own daughter was sending. She told her daughter how upset she was about it.

Megan ran upstairs, and her father, Ron, tried to tell her everything would be fine. About 20 minutes later, she was found in her bedroom. She died the next day.

Her father said he found a message the next day from Josh, which he said law enforcement authorities have not been able to retrieve. It told the girl she was a bad person and the world would be better without her, he has said.

Another parent, who learned of the MySpace account from her own daughter who had access to the Josh profile, told Megan's parents about the hoax in a counselor's office about six weeks after Megan died. That's when they learned Josh was imaginary, they said.

The woman who created the fake profile has not been charged with a crime. She allegedly told the St. Charles County Sheriff's Department she created Josh's profile because she wanted to gain Megan's confidence to know what Megan was saying about her own child online.

The mother from down the street told police that she, her daughter and another person all typed and monitored the communication between the fictitious boy and Megan.

A person who answered the door at the family's house told an Associated Press reporter on Friday afternoon that they had been advised not to comment.

Megan's parents had been storing a foosball table for the family that created the MySpace character. Six weeks after Megan's death, they learned the other family had created the profile and responded by destroying the foosball table, dumping it on the neighbors' driveway and encouraging them to move away.

Megan's parents are now separated and plan to divorce.

Aldermen in Dardenne Prairie, a community of about 7,000 residents about 35 miles from St. Louis, have proposed a new ordinance related to child endangerment and Internet harassment. It could come before city leaders on Wednesday.

"Is this enough?" Mayor Pam Fogarty said Friday. "No, not by any stretch of the imagination, but it's something, and you have to start somewhere."

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Before The Crash...

Just wanted some underwear

Life is not complete unless you have a Macy's card. I never felt more out of step with mainstream society then being inside the new downtown Macy's. But I think I'm addicted to the underwear I purchased. I just want to wear it and nothing else!

We burned together

It was a great nightmare but only if I could have it again.

Natural High!

Open Mike Comedy Set List And Results

!. Mom said I popped right out = few laughs

2. Dad tampon and depends regional sales director = good laughs/one oh shit..

3. Neighbor/stripper high on cocaine and sparks = big laughs

4. Gay man asked if my dick was as big as my head = big laughs at me..?

5. Tampon 2- Mom's going to bleed.. Every month? I was 7 = laughs/no!no!no!

Hell of a nightmare!

I was with Marisol in Spain then just like that we are in hell and she is screaming "I'm burning!" I woke up with chest pains. I hope I die in my sleep.

Nyssa sending me something from amazon!

Retooled my wish list and now Nyssa wants to buy me something! This blog is a reminder to me to check my wish list purchased chart tonight and Sunday!

My Joke amazon wish list is a big hit!

It was a joke! I had to take it down out of guilt... Anybody want a latex body suit? 70's gay porn documentry? Fur water bed cover? Steel cock ring collection? Steel water bowl..? Boogie night dvd? Studded leather laptop cover?

I 'm Hawaiian I hate Dog Chapman! Karma Bitch!

Television bounty hunter Duane "Dog" Chapman has apologized for repeatedly using a racial slur in a profanity-laced tirade during a private phone conversation with his son that was recorded and posted online.

Chapman, star of A&E's hit reality series "Dog the Bounty Hunter," issued a statement apologizing for the comments after The National Enquirer posted a clip of the conversation in which he uses the N-word in reference to his son's girlfriend.

"We take this matter very seriously," A&E spokesman Michael Feeney said in a statement Thursday. "Pending an investigation, we have suspended production on the series. When the inquiry is concluded, we will take appropriate action."