Poor Glass Recycling

All my empty wines bottles landed across the street breaking a lot of windows to asshole lawyer office's I have to wake up to every morning. Was that a resolution for 2006?

No knife

In1989 I was like Bob Geldof in the movie the wall. I did not know if I was asleep or awake. I was having fantasies of tying up my roommate and having sex with her. I feared I would harm her so I decided to kill myself rather then hurt her. Lucky I carved up my upper arms not my wrists. I spent 10 days in the Holiday Park mental ward. Made a jewel box and slippers in rehab. There was a girl who would pinch herself all over her body until dark bruises appeared. She assked me to keep her company outside in the smoking area. Next thing I know I am getting a BJ behind a transformer box. She ruined it for me by saying thanks uncle afterward. She had those dead eyes that only crazy people seem to have. I stayed in my room the rest of my stay in the nut house.

Fish Bitch

Pisces Daily extended (by Astrology.com)
When something is troubling you, it can be helpful to try to live in an illusion -- to keep yourself so distracted that you don't have to deal with unpleasant thoughts. This is an acceptable short-term solution, but it's a very bad long-term strategy. Today you need to face the reality of where you are and what has been going on. Reality is never as awful as you fear. Plus, you can't get control of your life if you don't see it accurately.


Last time I went totally insane are started speaking out loud to my daydreams in my imagination!

Fuck what to do?

My teeth are totally fucked up! The chest pains have stopped and the suicidal thoughts are down to every 13 hours. 2007 does not sound like the year of the good health and easy pleasure of 2006... 40 in March big fucking deal when your suicidal and facing a total body failure. Type 2 has taken it's pound of flesh. Be a man you fucking piece of shit! Fight back and rub it the face of doctors,dentists, and staff who try to take cheap shots at you. Share the misery with those who look to fuck with your shit problems. Think of Richard III and John Lydon by using your gifts as a actor. "Now is the winter of are discontent made glorious summer by this son of York."

My crush got crushed at work

Welcome to my world....

I worked last night in the ER. I wasn't suppose to but, I switched with a girl who really wanted it off and since I wasn't doing anything, I traded shifts with her. You also get paid more for working a holiday.

Well, we admitted a 12 year old girl who was shot in the stomach by her 10 year old brother after they had an arguement. With a shot gun.

She didn't make it. Yeah, don't think the extra cash was really worth it. Wow, can you even imagine the Christmas that family's having?

7:40 AM - Christmas!

My Bullyington

	Dec 26, 2006 6:29 AM
Subject	My family is in hell..?
Body:	Nobody called yesterday and I guess I wasted money on FTD.com. I did have a lovely dinner with a Madame and her "Crew". I am their mascot and all around bitch boy... We shared horror childhood stories and eggnog. Is this a blog? shit!!! "Is the girl next to me TS? Shit I spend to much time on myspace"

3 of 6 bottles of gift wine consumed

Watched 2 bbc series purchased at borders. When the cashier was checking I was thinking hurry up bitch stupid bitch what the fuck is wrong with you! I have the holiday spirit there can be no doubt. The chest pains have stopped or I can't feel them because of all the wine consumed..?

All in all this is one of the better holiday season's of recent years...

Chest Pain

So much for a slow death bring the pain bitch!

I remind myself for her

I try to remind myself when Mom hurts me that she was hurt in the worst way as a child. She is a damaged person just trying to survive and so needy for love. I have to protect myself from her- yet can't I try to understand why? She must decide to change or I must keep some distance for my own chance to survive. I have read accounts of people giving their all to change for themselves and their children.

SAM'e!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SAM'e! I am high motherfucker yeah! Oh lord I have a very bad feeling about this.... Maybe it's all the mult-vit. and energy drinks? No- I have done that shit before. I have heard some shit about this crap but damn! There is a warning about taking rx and this SAM'e on the bottle. Will i crash again worse then ever? Doc's are mean to me about my scares- fuck them!

Foxy Man All Christmas Week

Foxy Tower security- how can I service you?

www.myspace.com/scorpio_queen

I knew her as Lee and she was a very pretty boy. She was the hottest Robin ever..! She wouldn't need me now- her Batman... I would just remind her of her family rejecting her

Don't Disappear

Can I hide from my shadow? I don't want to do this anymore
the whole coping with the depression coming and going
Living between down moods and holding on then going back to my excuse for a life
Somebody give me a good smack in the head

Slowcide,Rot,and Away

The feet grow black and moles are funny shaped the teeth rot and the mind is calm

Let the body match the mind just to stay alive

I did imagine the fall from 27 floors on to Pioneer Square the day after Jesus barfday

Wait it out and see which is the first to the end- the body or the mind

Probably the mind will crash and will lose a leg spend all my money getting the broken teeth pulled

I'll end up like Peter Boyle

Ok for now but the future looking SLOW and painful

Dad sold tampons

He started with Dixie cups then Gallo wine finally the Kimberly Clark paper company. He finishing his career with adult diapers. I got a autograph photo of June Allison, one year! Maybe I have a fear of vagina's?

Mommie Myspace Dearest

Why did my Mother tell me the history of Transsexual's in Hawaiian history? She seemed some what relieved..?